Who does not know the challenges black people have in this world? It does not matter what degree you have, or how many inspirational books you have written. To a vast majority, you are first and foremost the colour of your skin. I have reached that place in my life that seeing colour is a form of accepting the differences between us all and allowing myself to open up in wanting to learn about others colours. I am black and I have learned about my blackness to eliminate others to narrate it for me and if they do, I can respectfully listen without taking offence because I already know about my colour, BLACK.
Married or not, an amazing mother or not, to a world that is claimed to be a man's world, I will always be seen as a skirt or an emotional being who cannot stand the pressure. As if the pressure of giving birth can be compared to bunches of traumatic chauvinists shouting at each other because they disagree. Raised by a woman from the womb, yet they grow to minimise the very vessel that raised them to be who they are today. They tell me I cannot compare me to a man, yet I disagree. I have the same right as a man, to leave a toxic relationship and move on. If men do it, leaving children behind, I do it much better as a woman, because I left with my children.
History has it that women like me are witches, evil and aggressive! Spirituality in the world is seen as normal if it is a man practising it. When it is a person like me, black and woman, we are seen as dangerous. Dangerous we are when you decide to tread on our territory. We are the wise women who build our home and we will not stand there, watching another tearing it down. Spiritual women are more than just Jealous, we are territorial. A trait we have picked up from God who gave birth to us, the spiritual beings.
I was a child who was loved in their younger age and still am loved today by my family. I was prepared for this life called 'motherhood'. Preparation is key, and I have been prepared for over 13 years. Many people around me were not aware of this because in thirteen years I lived exactly the same as before even in the face of all the obstacles I was going through. I underwent many obstacles in my life, which caused me to renew my mindset and became the woman many see today. Not afraid to live and exist.